I swear, the last time You woke me up as you were leaving, slamming the door Result: worsening an already bad night I left you a message on the table and you didn't even notice But who cares Tell me, do you think I was lying? On WhatsApp, I have the same message that I've been writing for months It seems like my heart and brain are in the freezer I'll lose my mind first Fog in the place where I live Grey mood, Resident Evil And now that my bank account is full You pretend to despise me, but you lie You know I was already a top player With two twenties in my pocket I speak, you care more about people I'm the one who always surpasses Who, to please everyone Would rather end up with nothing In hindsight I know I'll write to you A hateful song When I'm not sober There's no more us You've said a thousand no's I end up in the madhouse If I no longer know who I am I hope neither now nor ever You push me to my limits And then ask me what's wrong You know I have no idea And now what do you want? If I ever see you again I'd rather die But I won't forgive you I'm like "Fuck what we had", that's in the past, I'm trying to move on Open wounds like a scar, I keep my guard up, but you were stabbing me in the back You were having your fun, we should've ended it, but how did you come back I really gave you my heart, you don't trust me at all, I hate that you feel that way You can do what you want, I'm not bitter If things go sour, don't call me What we had should be buried You messed up, little b***, and I'm over it Trying to argue, you won't get a response from me I let you have it more than you deserve "Better get out of my way, yeah, the star's coming" You saw me as a joke and I'm not funny She led me astray with the lights on Watching videos and listening to my song Deleted your pictures from my phone Feeling better since I've been alone Think I'm coming back, but I'm gone I can't play games with you, I'm grown You're the one I love until I come home I'm sorry In hindsight I know I'll write to you A hateful song When I'm not sober There's no more us You've said a thousand no's I end up in the madhouse If I no longer know who I am I hope neither now nor ever You push me to my limits And then ask me what's wrong You know I have no idea And now what do you want? If I ever see you again I'd rather die But I won't forgive you